chandelier

Uno de los mejores videos que he visto en mucho tiempo.

Me hace recordar a la niña loca que vive dentro de mi.

La cancion tiene que ver con el alcoholismo. A mi entender con cualquier tipo de adicción.

Una niña abandonada. Vive en una casa donde sus padres estan ausentes-presentes. Simula que tiene una vida.

Party girls don't get hurt
Can't feel anything, when will I learn
I push it down, push it down

I'm the one "for a good time call"
Phone's blowin' up, they're ringin' my doorbell
I feel the love, feel the love

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

Throw em back, till I lose count

I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist
Like it doesn't exist
I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

And I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I'm just holding on for tonight
Help me, I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I'm just holding on for tonight
On for tonight

Sun is up, I'm a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Here comes the shame, here comes the shame

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

Throw em back till I lose count

I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist
Like it doesn't exist
I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

And I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I'm just holding on for tonight
Help me, I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I'm just holding on for tonight
On for tonight.

going back to xanax

Had the longest dream last night an old friend from school was dying

and I was there with her and her family

She was agonizing

and were waiting for her to die

already in the funerary house

and I cried and cried

couldn't stop crying

and she was in pain so I was giving her anesthesia

so she wouldn't feel so much pain

and everyone was waiting for her to die

and she was holding my legs while agonizing cause I was with her in her bed  keeping her company

and then she finally died

and I was so sorry for her family

and for her because she was young and beautiful and talented

and then she began moving

but not alive anymore

just like dead movements

empty movements

the movements of the dead

So we put her in the coffin

and I was checking on her every once in a while

and she was getting bigger and bigger

swollen with putrefaction already

and she couldn't fit in the coffin

and she had her eyes open

and then she closed them as if she was sleeping  and I woke up